Pain…

It could mean physical and it could mean mental. The second one was not thought until this morning. Hurt, is the same thing. It could mean physical or mental. Sometimes like in my case it could be both.

I hurt mentally when something else goes. I remember being the girl I was. I morn losing her. (Today is a gloomy day…well, right now). The Pity Pary comes and goes. I was reminded multiple times yesterday. For me, the reminder is good.

I can be bitter (yes, I said bitter). I make sure that bitterness does not linger.

Each heart knows it’s own bitterness, and no one else can fully share its joy. – Proverbs 14:10 NLT

I had to look that verse up in another translation to understand it. I used Easy to Read (ERV).

Get rid of all bitterness, rage, anger, harsh words, and slander, as well as all types of evil behavior. – Ephesians 4:31 NLT

The second verse is one that I do think about. That why my bitterness does not linger.

Am I angry or bitter at my illness? Sometimes (interesting). I think it is real easy to miss the girl I was. The girl who walked, talked, typed, wrote, danced without any issues.

Now I have issues.

I get fatigued. And the crowds that didn’t bug me, now do.

How did Jesus do it? How did He deal with the crowds? There were times when He retreated, retreated to pray.

In those instances, I do not think to pray. Perhaps I should. That is when I need help. Help to get rid of the bitterness & judgement I feel. Bitterness & judgement directed at other people.

I like music so I am thinking of that song by Toby Mac, “Help Is On the Way (Maybe Midnight)”

Rolling up His sleeves again…

That denotes action will be taken. Wonderful.

So any things to remember to stay joyful. Joyful Julie…hmmm…

I would like to be that girl all the time.

Julie 🧡